I think I was spoiled.

Why?

I know what it meant to be utterly loved.

Why do you think it’s getting spoiled?

Maybe because it would be hard to fill in those shoes, and really, I don’t expect anybody to fill those shoes.

Spoiled might be the right word. But spoiled means you do expect someone. How do you feel about it?

Sad. To be utterly selfish, I want to be loved like that again.

Do you think it’s gonna happen again?

I’m not sure.

Well, it’s better to have felt it than never, no?

No.

You prefer to have never experienced it?

Yes.

The yearning hurts more than the memories?

Of course. Memories make the loss feel sharper.

It’s hard to appreciate anything as they are. Sometimes we find our self worth tied up to memories of the past. Not being able to relive it makes us feel that we are less.

That’s true..

How do you deal with that is up to you. I personally feel.. life goes on. Our best point may have passed and we’ll never know it. But what use is to dwell on things we can’t change?

That’s true. I don’t know. Maybe it’s better to just let it be as it is right now.