I said I wanted answers about the reasons things that happened to me. I don’t anymore.
I’ve made the decision 6 weeks ago. I would leave the past. Leave the answers to my questions. Leave the memories of a bitter time.
So I looked at the present and the future. And things has indeed become better.
I don’t have those weird thougts again. The thought that this is not worth it. The thought that I would rather end it all rather to feel that pain again.
And that pain never came back.
I hope it won’t ever come back again forever.
Now I’m free, now I can see clearly.
I don’t regret what I’ve done, and I’m not angry for what I’ve went through.
The only sane thing to do is to accept things as the way they were, and the way they are right now.
Time to move forward.